haiz...cayang...i miz u s0o much!!! it has only been tw0 days ag0 wen i last saw him..i didnt get d chance t0 send him 0f yesterday..didnt even get t0 meet him..argh!! st0opid werk!! haiz..cayang, d last time we met..remember?..wen we sat at esplanade?... i was quiet..quieter den usual..i was actualli trying veri hard t0 fight back my tears...i kept redirecting my thoughts t0 sumthing else..everytime i think bout it ill juz shrug it 0ff...i shud haf cried it out der n den..!!! i waited till d last minute.. sheesh!
u t0o were quiet dat day..haha! mcm lain g2..selalu nyer bising..hehe! nie diam jer..i juz kept saying dat i was g0nna miz u..but d real feeling 0f it..i kept it in..c0z i n0e if n0t...i wldnt b able t0 st0p my tears..s0 i juz kept it inside..
den u sent me t0 werk..in d bus..wen we were about t0 reach ginza..den only did i let g0...i turned t0 u..i tried to hold ur gaze..it was hard...s0 i juz l0oked d0wn..n said it once m0re..but dis time.. tears started t0 stream d0wn my cheeks..g0sh! i truly hate crying in public..! i juz hate it!! but i c0uldnt h0ld it back nem0re..dat wld b d last time im g0nna see u, until 14 june..haiz..
i really cried...my tears cldnt st0p fl0wing...den wen u said dat u t0o had been h0lding it back.. w0rse! i cried m0re..! haiz..wad g0t me t0 st0p crying was bc0z we've alredy reached ginza.. sp0il bt0l! my crying had t0 b cut sh0rt!! it's reali painful...keeping it all b0ttled up inside..wen all these tears r like already brimming up...sakit hati seh...seri0usly...we juz managed to hug each other..n i had t0 rush f0r werk..c0z i was already late..haiz..keje p0n..mcm tak tenteram seh...
den dis m0rning...i w0ke up crying...seri0usly crying...i t0ok my f0n..saw dat i g0t an sms frm u n started t0 cry..wad d?! haha! but yeah..i was crying like crazy in bed...wen my sis saw me..she p0n tegur bout my eyes.."asal mata kakak kecik?" den i l0oked int0 d mirr0r..ha ha...bengkak giler! like d frst time i've seen my eyes dat sw0llen! nvr cried f0r a guy dis bad...dis is s0o true..i've nvr cried f0r sum0ne else dis badly b4..haiz...nasib dis m0rning dapat bbual nagn u jap..dpt dgr suare p0n dah orite..kalau tak, c0nferm lagi ter0k..haiz..takpe lah..
Absence makes d heart gr0ws f0nder...i've always believed in dat...c0nferm biler u dah balik lebih sayang..hehe! dat time wen i went t0 thailand...it was only 6 days...kirekan mcm rehearsal g2 lah..haha! n0w 14 days straight! g0sh!...hmm..h0w to make d days pass by faster?..haf fun...hmm...nak uat aper seh? juni n umi b0th sk0ol...den sumtimes wen dey free i werking...argh!! oh wellz i'll find a way...14 m0re days...c0unting down..
