":::Kick Ass Angel:::"
I don't know what are we right now. We're attached but it seems like we're not. It's been a week exactly since we last met and the last time we went out, it did'nt turn out well. The whole day i felt like shit. I'm really sorry. The whole time I was'nt having fun at all, you we're dreading it too I can sense. I'm so sorry, its all my fault but i can't help it. Seriously, I can't. You keep smsing me but I can't reply. My prepaid's low. Calling? I just don't know what to say to you. I know I've been keeping silent these past week. It's coz i don't know what to say. The things i say may hurt you. I don't want to but i know that i'm already doing that exactly. I miss you...but I don't want to! There's this constant nagging in my head which holds me back. I don't want to get hurt again. I'm scared, confused...I'm just..haiz..i don't know. I've cried enough, wasted too much tears. I want to work things out but everytime i try there's always just something wrong! Fuck life! I feel like crying but i don't have the strengh to work these tears down. Sick of crying, sick of worrying, sick of giving, sick of being patient. And for the last time. There is no 'other guy'. There's no one else. Saufi is just a friend. The rest of the guys are just my friends. I don't get why you're so worried bout that.